A Hard Week Of Perseverance
It's been a hard week of perseverance for me. I got news of a beautiful young girl dying of Cancer and it kind-of destroyed me for a minute. I listened to her soundcloud and cried into my laptop. It was both tragic and comical, simultaneously. Tragic, because a beautiful kid died at the hands of the Illuminati phantoms and because I was ruining my laptop that I'd never be able to afford to replace. The comical part being: the tears dripped into my laptop and caused it to fizzle which caused me to jump in reactive self-preservation fear and sent the laptop careening into the corner of the coffee table. It made breaking noises as it fell. It never worked again. Nothing could undo the breakage of whatever was now rattling inside. I could not make it work again. I tried taking it apart to repair it and made it even worse.
So the loss of life was compounded with loss of my ability to effectively attend to my ministries online, like this website.
I found-out just how bad my situation is. I can't raise $50 in a timely fashion to buy a used junk laptop like the one I had. I'll never be able to afford another sampler at this rate, so music is never going to happen for me again. Reality sets in...I'm almost too depressed to function. I'm doing this on the house laptop, the one used to watch movies on or let guests use when they're over. I no longer have a personal unit to call my own.
My wife saw my distress and how the Illuminati was striking the house laptop due to me using it for my Earth mission. She went on Wards to see if she could use her credit card to buy me a replacement. They don't even sell Toshiba laptops there. The Chromebooks and notebooks are just toys with no disk drive and mini HDMI ports and no internal memory to speak of and they're as expensive as a real laptop used to be. Anything resembling a real laptop was just above my wife's available spending limit. So I was blocked from getting a laptop from there.
Then, my wife decided to use her purchase power option from her job to buy from their catalog. They had a Dell for $560. Time it rings through with taxes and shipping, it's well above $600. It has a disk drive and 500GB internal storage, so it's a real laptop. But it's got Windows 10 and I wanted Windows 7. At Wards, they had a laptop with Windows 7, but I couldn't get it.
I decided to settle on the Dell, thinking Windows 10 will be better than nothing, right? My wife supposedly has more than 3-grand in available credit through her employer catalog, right? Yet the order wouldn't go through. They wanted an alternate method of payment, so my wife put that in. There was not enough money on the credit card to cover the purchase and we think, at the time, that could be why the order keeps dropping back to the home page. So we tried to input my checking account debit card, just to give you a clue how desperate I was to get a victory out of this thing.
The order would still not go through. It looked as though the life theme of never recovering the next thing I lost was still in action. Years ago, as a kid, I lost my driver's license, never to get it back again. I lost a lot of stuff since then, never to get any of it back. I lost my van in 2015, never to get another one. I lost my musical equipment (my mini studio) in 2016, never to get any of it back. Now, I lost a laptop, and it looked as though I'll never get another one. It's been the story of my life; get something only to lose it, forever.
So I was ready to give-up on the laptop. I was eating a late night snack at my wife's house when she came in the room to tell me that she got the order to go through. This morning, she received a confirmation of processing email, so I guess I finally broke that cycle of never recovering what I lose...If only one of the empires I lost could come back to me now, I could build this homeless animal sanctuary I've been trying to build for more than a decade now.
I got all depressed and discombobulated. But my ministry to the homeless kitties keeps me grounded. I see their lives and realize that I have a lot to be thankful for. I could be one of them, being denied love and affection and basic necessities by the hard-hearted zombified low caliber humans of this self-absorbed iGeneration. I'm able to provide that good moment in their lives when a human cared enough about them to give them some food and attention. I don't suppose I need a laptop for that...But I do need one to continue to search for high caliber humans to help me with this ministry because I, myself, am poverty stricken, too. And, for that, I do need a laptop.
I could sure do with a little time off. Just a few days where I don't have to be in service. I probably won't ever find anyone I can trust to fill in for me that long...So remember that, when you're able to travel and go do stuff because you don't have animals to be responsible to...I may be carrying YOUR weight, too...It only takes a small percentage of the supposed "Christians" out there to remove this cross from my back. 2.2 BILLION Christians outnumber 70 MILLION homeless animals. If only I could find 70 million good high caliber Christians, huh? Then I could move on and go buy ME a boat or something, too. But I couldn't even find 10 million good Christians to part with a dollar to restore my wife just one year of what Christians stole from her (they stole her $10-million PLUS per year empire back in 2008 and never restored her). But I digress. No use reiterating THAT ongoing life-rape that my wife endures at the hands of Christians every day, right? It's not like they're going to evolve and miraculously develop a basic human sense of shame that motivates them to the action of restoring my wife to combat the action of life-raping her by stealing her empire. Hell, these fake Illuminati controlled "Christians" don't even know about Positive Frequency Resonance, which is the basic subject of the entire Bible; just to clue you in on how bad it's gotten with the no sound doctrine manifestation.
Anyway: My ministry doesn't stop just because I failed to post what I'm doing. Take a peek over at Kitty Village and see the new photos of the latest batch of kitties!
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